"if you don't change, you die"

I need a change. New everything (well most things, anyway). New clothes, new hair, new shoes, new routine, actually no. No routine, nothing that I have, only things I want to do, no responsibilities, nothing to worry about. I crave the spontaneous. Shopping trips to Melbourne, spending endless hours getting lost down mystic alleyways, waking up in the mornings and knowing that your not bound to your desk by the ever growing chain that is the mountain of homework, all due on Monday, I need the permission to create without wondering what mark, score or degrading comment it will return to me with. I need to escape. The two day "break" between the five day waiting game, just isn't sufficient anymore.

 new york

 sydney

 london

melbourne

brooklyn

manhattan

I want a boyfriend that will take me places I've never been before, a part-time job that supplies me with an  abundance of funds that should only be wasted on Gloria Jeans.

 I want to learn without being taught. 

Oh my ears and whiskers, how late it's getting!

All that I want to do at the moment is go to bed, eat junk food and sleep, all simultaneously if possible. Today, I was talking to a teacher and when she asked "So, what do you want to do...?" I looked up from my desk and at her expectant gaze as she waited for a response, my answer "umm, eh...sleep" she meant with the rest of my life, so did I. At the moment, I find it's the little things that are making me smile like finding my black pen, writing with it is amazing! Or achieving a perfect messy bun for school, pure bliss. Walking to the bus stop in the pouring rain, I adore the refreshing smell rain always brings with it.

I find homework so over whelming these days, it's just so pointlessly tedious .

i thought i'd share with you some pictures that seem to be being themeing most of my day dreams and are greatly influencing me at the moment, you'll have to forgive me as i don't have the specific source but they are all from various tumblr blogs.

we run the night x.

Other Stories.

This week was just another week, I got up, got dressed and went to school. Nothing really special happened, no stories were created, no memorable memories, just going through the motions of a normal adolescence . Sleep, food, school, food, home, food, homework, food, sleep.
This week I packed and unpacked numerous times, began something new and became a shade lighter yet again, all the while slowly becoming sick with only god knows what. It's official winter has come, as I rearrange my cupboard, moving tee-shirts to the back and jackets to the front. My outfits these day are duller and consumed my the colour black, I can't help it, it just happens, morbidly consuming. Black jeans, black boots, black jacket, black skies, dull weather and hot coffee.